Screw up

Haven't felt so shitty in a long time.

In fact, I wonder if I've ever felt as shitty as this.

Ever felt like you've given your all to deliver the best you can for the day, only to screw up elsewhere, and apologies and explanations are simply pointless and then you wish that time could just rewind, to the time when you brushed away your queries, taking for granted that things would go your way.

And then you think back about your decisions back then, and wish you stuck to what you really wanted, although you know at the back of your mind the way things are is ultimately inevitable.

There really isn't anything I can do, but hope that the best turns out from however bad the situation is.

Or maybe there is.