love scar

just like any other bruises

it starts with a stinging pain
and gets unbearable on contact
you don’t know whether to bare it all
or to cover it up with a bandage

then as it tries to heal
there are moments you itch and you want to scratch it
but you refrain, because you know it’ll only get worse
especially if you’ve been making progress

but as they say
time heals everything.
pain will disappear.
just be patient and persevere.
you do have natural healing powers.

some email

"When I was a little girl, my mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work. On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage, and extremely burned toast in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was reach for his toast, smile at my mom, and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember watching him smear butter and jelly on that toast and eat every bite!

When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad for burning the toast. And I'll never forget what he said: 'Baby, I love burned toast.'

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his toast burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, 'Debbie, your Momma put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides a little burnt toast never hurt anyone!' You know, life is full of imperfect things.....and imperfect people. I'm not the best housekeeper or cook.

What I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences - is the one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship.

And that's my prayer for you today. That you will learn to take the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life and lay them at the feet of GOD. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be able to give you a relationship where burnt toast isn't a deal-breaker! We could extend this to any relationship in fact - as understanding is the base of any relationship, be it a husband-wife or parent-child or friendship!! "

life goes on

and it gets more exciting.

to do list:

- find out what kinds of jobs are available in NZ and UK, when is a good time to head over
- decide on dates and location for diving in september, plus find khakis!
- find 1 x female khaki for BKK end october
- financial planning! about time…
- plan more holidays. hahahah…

解脱

张惠妹

爱是不夜城
回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾
我越感觉有点冷

变了心的人
越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨
阳光替房间开了灯

想 若结局一样
又何苦再想
想 若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱 是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走 我有自由好好过
解脱 是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我

words that have lost their truths

there are moments
where thoughts of the past creeps up on me
what’s been said before
what’s been done before

then i need to remind myself to STOP
stop right there
stop looking at the past
because it all don’t matter now

how true it had been
stopped being true yesterday.

whatever you hadn’t understand
doesn’t need to be understood.
things don’t need to make sense to you anymore.

because it’s over now. 

believe it.

closure

it came earlier than expected, but just as well.

please understand
if i’m walking too fast for you these days

i think it helps me avoid looking back
keeps me in the mood of looking forward, moving forward
don’t stop me in my tracks

it’s time to build more memories on my own, without him in the picture
to replace the overflowing moments that we had in the past 2.5 years

anyone wants to dive in september? a short and budget one!
need 1 more female khaki for bangkok in october too!

let me know!! :)

31 October 2009

never imagined myself to be counting to this.
but hell yeah…

10 more weeks!!!

隐形人

孙燕姿

无论你肯或不肯
我都选择等
等到你结束好久
探险的旅程
要是没有寂寞陪衬
没有途中的灰尘
你怎会向往家门

你越是想要诚恳
其实越残忍
伪装不了你对我
漠视的眼神
你不许我听信永恒
不许我迷信我们
不许我奋不顾身

多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
给你我的体温
好帮你驱走寒冷
看不见也能感受心疼
多想化成隐形的人
隐藏我的泪在翻滚
我在你凌乱世界
留下的指纹
对你是没心跳的一个吻

朋友都于心不忍
责备我愚蠢
但他们都回避我
执著的眼神
可知我对爱的虔诚
可知我迷信我们
可知我难得放任

多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
给你我的体温
好帮你驱走寒冷
看不见也能感受心疼
多想化成隐形的人
隐藏我的泪在翻滚
我在你凌乱世界
留下的指纹
对你是没心跳的一个吻

random

Teoheng is an awesome place for KTV.

It has most original MTVs, even for the english songs, but they don't have the original MTV for Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie.
So this was what was shown on the screen:


LOL


I cut my hair. Bangs, or not?

Pink

Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

First day.

I need this denial.

Violent tendencies?

Spent the night watching shows about freak accidents, kamakazes, airplane crash investigations, train crash investigations.

I think I've got violent tendencies.

The (notso)-new History channel's really interesting.
I love educational channels!
Got me glued to the tv for 5 hours straight.
The ads for the upcoming shows make me wanna be a fulltime couch potato.