Tired, busy, aching, but fun!

What a tiring few days it has been!! Been so busy that I'm losing track of time.

My shoulders, arms, thighs and calves are sore. Working for Zovb is indeed much more tiring than Combat Skirmish.

Working for the two are completely different experiences altogether, although the people you're dealing with are the same.

Zovb is more personal; you feel like you're actually having fun with the kids, but it's definitely not fun, IMO, to run and push the ball up and down the slope (despite the fact that it isn't very steep) for TWO STRAIGHT HOURS (!!!), like we did today. It's almost like an outdoor gym for people who are keen on body building. Hahaha... Yesterday was pretty fun though, as the group wasn't so big and things wrapped up within an hour.

Combat Skirmish has different levels to it. When you're a team leader, you might be a tad bored because all you do is count, and give short and simple instructions. Things get challenging when you're tasked as a session manager, and your job is to control the crowd and organize the whole event.

Both are great fun though, to me at least. Definitely my cup of tea. :)

Looking forward to the new staffs, staff outings, new activity (watch this space!) and more progress!

Ahhh.. So tired. Only had 3 hours of sleep last night :(

Caught the finals of Euro08 at ECP MacD's last night. We were playing Bridge most of the time (I love Bridge!) and I couldn't see the ball getting kicked around very well because I've got poor eyesight and we were damn far away from the telly. BUT!! Spain's passing is really amazing and I'm happy that Spain won :D I hope Fabulous Fabregas stays with Arsenal for as long as he's this good. Haha.

Ok, I should turn in early. GNight.

Help!!

My handphone can't slide open anymore! (I'm using a Samsung U700, which no longer looks as gorgeous as it used to be)

I placed it near super glue that I just removed from the fridge, and I think the condensation glued my phone together.
Sobs.

Now I can't dial any numbers, so I can't SMS.
This sucks...

What's for dinner?

Can't decide or don't know where to eat?

Take the wheel and stalk a random car.
It's quite exciting.

I MUST...

I MUST RESIST ONLINE-SHOPPING!!!

Anger

Boils everytime that issue is mentioned and I'm sick of that conversation.

I think I need alcohol to help me sleep, to help me stop thinking about it. You won't believe how angry I become just pondering to myself. I might be fucking ridiculous and paranoid, but whatever.

I could really use a getaway, but it's only 2 weeks into June.

Okay, here's looking forward to July. Hopefully we'll get to go diving.

Christianity

If 'god' was so powerful, why do natural disasters exist?
If 'god' was so powerful, why are 'christians' still depressed?
If 'god' was so powerful, why are there evil people?
If 'god' was so powerful, why is life unfair?
If 'god' was so powerful, why are there other religions?
If 'god' was so powerful, why don't ALL christians get what they want?
If 'god' was so powerful, why do some non-christians still get what they want?
If 'god' was so powerful, why the hell am I typing this?

If 'god' was so powerful, make me a christian.
Make EVERYONE a christian.

(Just in case any christians read this and is about to lecture me instead of give any reasonable and logical answers, shut up already.)

Cats/Humans

Had dinner out with my dad yesterday.

Saw a couple of cats around, which reminded me of Fluff, the cat in my ex-office. So I made a comment to my dad: "Cats are weird animals, very temperamental. One moment, they could be cosying up to you, and the next moment it might just scratch you when you wanna stroke it."

Then he said something which I thought made a lot of sense:

"Not just cats. All animals are like that. Even humans are like that."

Screw up

Haven't felt so shitty in a long time.

In fact, I wonder if I've ever felt as shitty as this.

Ever felt like you've given your all to deliver the best you can for the day, only to screw up elsewhere, and apologies and explanations are simply pointless and then you wish that time could just rewind, to the time when you brushed away your queries, taking for granted that things would go your way.

And then you think back about your decisions back then, and wish you stuck to what you really wanted, although you know at the back of your mind the way things are is ultimately inevitable.

There really isn't anything I can do, but hope that the best turns out from however bad the situation is.

Or maybe there is.

Money, Dirty Money

Everything in this world is driven by money. In the name of good, like education, lifestyle campaigns, or even charity. It's all about business, money-generating business. Hypocritical, if you ask me.

Money has become such a chain of digits that humans have become so senselessly obsessed with increasing the value of, forgetting the reason behind all these racing, chasing and accumulating of wealth.

I do miss how it used to be.

And I wonder if 'logical love' exists.