Money

Money can buy you a house, but it can’t buy you a home
Money can buy you a clock, but it can’t buy you time
Money can buy you a bed, but it can’t buy you sleep
Money can buy you books, but it can’t buy you wisdom
Money can buy you medicine, but it can’t buy you health
Money can buy you status, but it can’t buy you respect
Money can buy you blood, but it can’t buy you life
Money can buy you sex, but it can’t buy you love.

Received this in a chinese sms from Crystal.
Thought its a good reminder for all of us on this earth.
Money is power, but it’s not happiness.

Up too late

Oops

I think my bad sleeping habits are returning!
Have been waking up at almost 1pm since I returned from Sweden
and sleeping really late, like at 5am or even later
and its not even due to jetlag anymore, I think.

Have just been pretty occupied with the computer, msn, updating my phone, reading etc

And hell, I forgot I was supposed to wake up really early tomorrow morning for RDA, and it’s the last week for this batch of kids!
Have a feeling I’m just gonna hit my alarm clock off in the morning
and go back to dreamland.
I feel quite bad, cause I’ve already missed the last 2 sessions, cause I wasn’t in Singapore. :\


Anyway, it is officially over.
It’s been a looong struggle
and I’ve finally realised and been fully convinced that it’s not worth it anymore.
I have no regrets, because I know I’ve tried my best and done everything I could for the entire 3 years.
So I’m walking away from the one who had hurt me more than protected me in the past year, with my head held high.
I know I deserve so much better
and I will be so much better without him.

:)

Flower in the Attic

That dream was to haunt me many a day, pleasantly. It gave me peace. It gave me knowledge I hadn’t had before. People never really died. They only went on to a better place, to wait a while for their loved ones to join them. And then once more they went back to the world, in the same way they had arrived the first time around.

Taken from Flowers in the Attic, by Virginia Andrews

Remember

How come it doesn’t feel like so long ago
that Dad proudly showed me his collection of US Olympic Coins of the Atlanta Centennial Olympic Games
and asked me to check if it’s valuable in the market?

It really feels so recent
But no, it must have been at least 4+ months back.

This incident suddenly popped into my head when I was just looking in his cupboard for a multi power adapter, and spotted the coins.

Without these little objects, I might never remember all these little incidences because they were so insignificant.
Yet I want to remember them as much as I can, because he deserves it.
That’s why I’m recording it here everytime I remember/dream something.
He was a great father, but I don’t think I’ve given him the credit he deserves while he was alive.

God saw you were getting tired
And it was not meant to be,
So he put his arms around you
And whispered,''come to me''.
With tearful eyes we watched you
And saw you pass away,
Although we loved you dearly
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating
Hard working hands at rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best

I’m home!
Hungry & sleepy…
But I know I should resist sleeping otherwise I’m gonna worsen my jetlag.

Hmmm. Not sure if I can do that.

I dreamt of my dad again just now, when I was on the flight back, and I cried myself awake again.
Hahaha, but luckily I don’t think anyone noticed lah.

:\

Wishful thinking

Taken from www.postsecret.blogspot.com

Time for confession.

Since my dad passed away, I’ve always hoped that he might be secretly alive somewhere else.
Perhaps he’s tired of his life, and he found some place better.
Perhaps he wanted us to be independent.
Perhaps he is keeping up with our lives on facebook.

Because he looked so different after the op, I sometimes wonder if that was really him?
Maybe it was someone else who looked very much like him?

Yeah, I think I’m a bit psycho and in denial.
But I kinda consider that possibility and hope that he’s happy wherever he is now.

Dad, I’m doing great.
Just that… I really miss you.

Loss

Somehow, thoughts flow better when I'm not trying to put them down in words.

I'm thinking about loss.

Loss of the ones you love, or people who have once crossed paths with you and made a difference in your life.
Through death. Or through break ups.

It hurts when you know that this loss is eternal, and nothing can bring that person back.
When the best and only way to keep that person close to you are merely memories you shared.

Such is life.
You come with nothing, you leave with nothing.
Feels kinda meaningless to me.
At the end of the day, does it matter what you do with your life, or how happy you were, or how many friends or foes you made?
Does it?
Does it matter what religion you believe in or how much good you do?

You don't know when people might leave.
You don't know if you'll make it till tomorrow.
I guess at this point of this one way conversation, the most appropriate thing to say is "cherish your loved ones and shower them with love."

There's no conclusion to this entry.
Just thoughts deep down that will always remain a mystery.
Maybe until I truly become a believer.

Dropping by

To say hi!

It's my 5th day in Stockholm today
And I only finally managed to get my stockholm sim card to connect me to the www on the go a couple of hours ago, thanks to hui!
So now I'm updating this while I'm on the bus on my way out...

Heading to one of those factory outlet shopping areas today
I hope I don't spend too much!
I should be refraining or even banned from shopping because of the promise I made myself in shanghai
But honestly, I'm running out of places to visit!

Stockholm isn't exactly an exciting place to be
Not such an ideal vacation destination if you're looking for things to do
But it's nice if you just wanna relax and look at pretty buildings and streets...

And living standards here are really high a well.
It's comparable to England when i was there 4 years ago. Expensive!
So we mostly cook our meals at home.

Cooking is a pretty new experience for me and it's really fun! Hahaha...
So far I've tried to cook omelette with vege mushroom and onion, tortellini with white wine cream sauce, and fish & chips.
I took photos of them, but I don't know how to insert photos with this app, so that's just too bad.
Hui's a lot better though, but I think i just need more practice and trial & error.
So far so good, no stomach upset yet.

Ok that's all I have for now.
Be back in a week! :)

me & my iphone

I know! The design of the skin really doesn’t suit me
but I’m only using it because it came free, and I have yet bought a casing.

Birthday present? hehe :D

oh I am SO DREADING the transit in Doha…
I’ll be boarding at Changi Airport at 2.25am, arriving in Doha at 10am Singapore time, wait for 2 hrs 55 min to board my next flight, then arrive in Stockholm at 1.45pm Stockholm time, which is 7.45pm Singapore time.
Total travel time: 17 hours 20 minutes

And the return is worse, with 7 hrs 20 min of transit time at Doha. Damn it!

Am probably 70% packed and I’m feeling guilty for not doing anything about it for the whole afternoon now… Still have my chargers and toiletries and some other stuff that I’ll probably still need before leaving the house tonight.
I hope I don’t forget anything.

I’ll try not to miss Singapore too much.
Take care in Singapore, everybody :D

iPhone

Yeah, it's finally my turn. Hahaha.

Testing out some apps. I realized that putting punctuations is kinda troublesome.

Wheee... I'm flying off tomorrow already!
Damn soon la. Excited :)
I hope there's free wi-fi in most places there.

Meanwhile, do recommend me some apps if you know of any awesome+free ones k?

:)

Ok I should sleep!

Count your blessings

I love my friends, I really do.
And I can feel that you guys really care and want the best for me.
I feel so loved!

Every single one of you is a blessing to me.
The 24th year of my life has been pretty rocky and horrid, and I think the amount of tears I shed in this one year is more than how much I cried my entire life.
But I have my lessons learnt, and I think I really grew.
I’ll start listing my blessings maybe tonight, because I’m about to head out for dinner.

<3