happy week

it’s monday!
no monday blues for me.
other than the fact that i had so much trouble trying to scan a few photos and until now, i’ve yet to get them scanned…
tonight, tonight.
maybe i should really invest in a scanner so that i can scan anything anytime.
roarrrr.

but whatever, i’m excited!
i love my schedule.
gonna be busy busy this week, starting Wednesday, with xmas celebrations and all :)
and then i’m gonna be flying off to shanghai on sunday.

actually i’m a bit sad that i’m gonna be away for new years, and the trip is a bit too long for my liking.
been hearing that there isn’t much in shanghai to stay for 8 days.
shall go do some research now…


by the way, i’m very proud of my creation. :)
only two copies in the entire world.
glad you love it! :)

in other good news, i just heard today that my paycheck for some freelance work is coming in within a week. woohoo!
just in time for my trip.

wen’s a happy girl :D

paycheck makes me happy!

childhood photos

looking through childhood photos in search of something for the batam christmas party
and needless to say,
nostalgia maxxx.

some photos really make my heart melt
and some photos make me wonder why on earth did my mom put me in such clothes!
and then there are those that make me wonder where did those days go?
the weirdest thought has got something to do with my very own family in the future. yup. weird. haha.

if only i had a scanner. maybe i should go get one. haha.

BOOMZ!

exploding! but yeah. shall keep to myself.
someone up there will look after me no matter what happens.

anyway…
gotta get up at 5am tomorrow. bloody early!
setting off for our 4 day roadtrip to malaysia.
i’m gonna have fun.
and i’m gonna be happy.

bye singapore, see ya on tuesday.

Leave Me

Leave Me from Daros Films on Vimeo.

Baby Don’t You Break My Heart Slow

by Vonda Shepard

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you say
do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

No.....

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean,
do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

You would run around and lead me on forever
While I waited home still thinking we're together
I wanted our love to last forever

I was believing in you

think about it

how much of what we do is based on impulse?

there is a difference between impulse and spontaneity.
i love spontaneity and i’m beginning to dislike impulse a lot.

mars intentions, burns bridges, and sometimes you simply do the wrong things and ruin everything.

i have this exploding feeling in me that i can’t express.
i can’t wait for the week to be over. :( 

yummm

messing around in the kitchen with hui.
everybody, say yummmm!

just had to say something here

almost done packing for my trip to Aussieland tomorrow.
looking forward to good times! with you, again :) i hope it's not the last.

see you in a week!
i know you’ll miss me. hehehheh.

my mother

its not what you do for people
but how you communicate with them.

i hate staying at home, and a large part of the reason is you.

it’s virtually impossible to start a conversation with you without you flaring up by the 2nd sentence, regardless of topic.

yes, you keep the house spick and span and all
but i would appreciate a mother who communicates in any other way rather than inane screaming and slamming furniture
who cares if she does zero housework?
at least i can count on her not to throw a fit within 5 minutes in her presence.

Azur Buffet

    

 

looks yummy, right?
this cost us $40.50nett per person.
feel cheated :(

they say you get 50% off with a DBS/POSB card if you have 2 pax
but who knew that if you’re in a group of 8 pax, you can only use that offer once within your group!
and you can only split the bill in two for one table.
if we knew, we would have sat at different tables :(

but anyway, i had a good time.
more good food tonight, i think.
woohoo! :)

Google Wave

ooh, looking forward to this.
let the wave take over! :)

http://wave.google.com/help/wave/about.html#video

it’s a looong video, so watch it only if you’re free.

mid November already!

half a month gone,
half a month of being jobless!
about time for an official update, huh.

so here goes…

i’ve been out and about almost everyday, meeting friends and catching up with different people, some of which i haven’t met in a long time.
and it always ends on the same note- let’s meet up again soon.
i hope it actually materializes, as it so often seems otherwise.

finally finished reading the twilight series and it was definitely a good read.
my favourite of the series is Breaking Dawn, but it’ll be a super long wait for the movie, if there is one.
now i need more good books for my bus/mrt journeys wherever.
can i borrow Marley & Me, or Time Traveller’s Wife from anyone?

been watching a lot of movies too- a lot, in my standards.
never used to watch an average of 2 movies in 2 weeks.
let’s see what have i got so far: 500 Days of Summer, My Sister’s Keeper, Poker King, My Girlfriend is an Agent & Paranormal Activity.
looking forward to more :)

also, i’ve been following Vampire Diaries.
needless to say, ian somerhalder is so divine and paul wesley really pales in comparison (although he does grow on you eventually).
and i’m not just watching it because i’m bored, or because ian is in it.
the story is actually quite good and leaves me begging for the next episode every time.

don't know why the tagline is so cheesy.

and out of boredom, i’ve also started following 海派甜心, starring Xiao Zhu and Rainie. not bad lah, very funny and entertaining. :)

click to watch the 1st episode on youtube!
 
i think i should already have gotten started with the guitar by now
but the internet gets the better of me all the time.
am still behind schedule for some things/work i set myself to do on the computer
but there are always random distractions like msn, facebook, blogs etc.
so the guitar has been made to wait. i’m sorry, dear.

i’ve been telling myself to wake up before noon, and so far, i’ve disappointed myself twice. only? or already?
haha, i don’t know.
but i do know that being jobless gets you sucked into a vicious cycle of sleeping late, then waking up late because there’s nothing much important to do most mornings.
not so healthy, i say.
i need more self-discipline.

speaking of healthy, i’m starting a running regime.
up for 2 weeks now; hopefully it lasts.
self-discipline again!

so that’s what i’ve been doing.
what’s coming up?

my awesome travelling adventure starts next week!
heading for the gold coast down under next friday, 27 nov (already!)
gonna be gone for a week,
then off for starcruise over the weekend of 4 – 6 dec.
and then kl/cameroon highlands 9 – 12 dec
and perhaps chongqing china some time after that.
i’ll be around for christmas! :)
and off to shanghai china again, 27 dec for a week.
hopefully cambodia in january is still on :)

woohoo! wen is a happy girl!

hao ren, huai ren

i'm beginning to think that humans really do exist in these two forms.
perhaps its not as distinct as what we see in tv shows;
and i truly believe, that in most cases in real life, the huai rens aren't all that huai as others make them out to be.

have you ever considered the following:

the true reasons of intentions behind actions- like a mother caning her child, her very own flesh and blood... at this age, we all know that's out of concern of a mother wanting her child to learn from his mistake. we probably never believed that when we were young. and the same thing applies here- we don't know why some people do the things they do. perhaps they're misunderstood, or they don't know how to express themselves in ways that people can comprehend and accept?

the extent of putting their personal benefits before others- which human doesn't fend for themselves or want the best for the ones they love? but how far would they go? would they inconvenient others, or even harm others, so that things would go their way, whether its a trivial or serious matter?

the process of getting to your final destination- when it turns into an obsession, you forget what the chase was all about. you're overwhelmed by the progress, enticed by money and power. you forget what you really wanted at the beginning of it all.

we all need reminders now and then.
even being a human, we need to check and review ourselves from time to time so make sure that we're on track.

most people are oblivious to this.
but when they become aware, and when you do justify what they’ve done, don't they deserve a chance?
but then again, how would you know that they would turn over a new leaf?
do they realise that they've been the huai ren before and do they want to become a hao ren?
or they simply can’t be bothered?

karma should not exist to make people suffer
but to make people learn from their past mistakes so that they avoid committing them again.

it's a pity it doesn't seem to work this way.
i honestly hate to see people's ignorance or refusal to see that they brought some things upon themselves, but blame it on other people or luck.

god really does work in mysterious ways.

McDonalds

If you wake up to a happy sound
Yummy yummy yum, yummy yum yum yum
The rockin’ hot cakes are comin’ around



honestly i don't remember ever seeing this on TV, but too cute? right? :D

quote

Amazing!

As if a Lotus could get any more gorgeous.

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I don’t know you anymore

by Savage Garden

I'm totally addicted to this song. Shall learn to play it on a guitar :)

500 Days of Summer

The more I think about the show, the more I like it. :)
Don’t go on reading if you don’t want spoilers.

http://www.foxsearchlight.com/500daysofsummer/


Not your typical fairytale, but still, it ends on a happy note.

Life isn’t fair, love isn’t fair.

You think you met the love of your life; everything’s going great but she just doesn’t feel the same way for you.
It’s as if she was complete on her own, and you can only hope you could be the one closest to her heart.
And then, she meets the love of her life, the missing piece of puzzle that nobody thought existed.
And you can’t help but wonder what was wrong with you that wasn’t perfect for her, when you were so great together?
There’s no reason nor explanation, just love, or the lack of it.

It’s sad, and it sure does hurt, but Autumn will come :)

retired

day 1 of being jobless.

been less than 2 hours and i’m feeling so damn empty already :(

i should really go get a temporary job soon.
glad that i already got one for tomorrow :D


whoever’s free, ask me out okay? :)

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

by Stephanie Sun (again!)

I don't wanna lose you,
but I don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side.

And I don't wanna hate you,
I don't wanna take you,
but I don't wanna be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter
to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know
it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people
don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Now, I could never change you,
I don't wanna blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.

Yes, I may have hurt you,
but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just wanna have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder,
it makes me feel like the rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know
it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people
don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

And there's no way home,
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love...
it just ain't enough.

how many times

wish you would just disappear. really.

disappointments one after another.
there are no excuses good enough to justify for these mistakes
and there's no use feeling bad, no use thinking and talking about walking away, when you don't actually walk away.
and nothing you’re doing right now is salvaging the damage done.

love.
passionate love / infatuation doesn't last forever. or it hardly ever does.
but when the passion fades, what's left of a relationship?

perhaps its a different kind of love altogether...
a love that's based on trust, comfort and appreciation for the person's presence in your life, and knowing that you want the best for them and your heart breaks to see them heartbroken.

Torn, Natalie Imbruglia

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn't be that man that I adored
You don't seem to know or seem to care
what your heart is for
I don’t know him anymore

There's nothing where he used to lie
Our conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine
I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
I should have seen just what was there
and not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins and now

I don't care I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
that I can't touch
I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
Torn

FAQ

I’ve had wayyy too many people asking me these questions! It’s not a pain to hear these questions, really. It’s nice to know that people are interested. But it’s quite a pain to answer them over and over again. So here it is. The answers you’ve been looking for. Haha.

Please still talk to me, I really don’t mind. I mean, I would love to talk to you guys! Just that this is so much easier than repeating myself again and again.


What are you planning to do after you quit?
Bum around, hang loose, hopefully travel a bit. Will still be part-timing & freelancing so that I still have a bit of income, so if anyone has any temporary job openings, please let me know! Thank you.

So what’s been planned so far?
Gold Coast, Australia, late Nov to early Dec for a week or two. With a bunch of 11-12 year old kids. Should be fun, I hope.
Hopefully Cambodia with Yang in January is still going through. Anyone else wants to tag along?
Might be going to Shanghai for about 6 days as well… Shopping trip I think. Not too sure when yet. November?

When are you leaving for New Zealand? How long are you staying there for?
After CNY, which is in February, so that I can collect angpows first. Haha. Planning to get a pick-apples kinda job there. Just to experience living in a foreign country, have fun and relax. Hopefully I’ll come back in June?

Anything else lined up after NZ?
Am considering heading to Sweden to look for Huihui(W) in July, but haven’t given it much thought in detail. Will see if I still have enough money left to bum around till then.

What happens after that?
I guess by then it’s about time I took myself and my life seriously.

breathe

it’s been a chill day at home
and for once i don’t feel like it’s a waste of time.
snoozed most of it, tv-ed, movie-d.
perhaps because i know i’m definitely not in the shape to be out and about
thanks to cable ski and soccer yesterday.

having awful muscleaches all over, and i really mean all over.
neck’s the worst, and my arms, thighs, back, waist, shoulders are aching as well.
but no pain, no gain!
i had lots of fun so i’m happyyyy despite the pain. :)
cable ski is fun and i wanna go again! need practice!
anybody?

i finally watched twilight!
i can’t tell if it’d be nice if i hadn’t read the book..
but now that i have, i think the movie is like rushed through and kinda weird that some parts are linked together when they’re not supposed to…
inevitable.
kirsten stewart really does grow on you, but my impression of bella would be a lot paler and weak-looking? kirsten steward has the natural sporty girl look, imo.
robert pattinson has charm, not all that goodlooking, but yes, charming. i think he looked better as cedric in harry potter though.  

am the driver tomorrow!
sheesh, am really going to suffer with the steering wheel and gear cause of my muscleaches. haha!
after tomorrow, i’m left with just 2 last weekends.
hmmm. am going to miss everything.
it’s become my life already…

well, i can finally breathe.
the past week has been.. good, in a way.
i had space to think, to realise, to logic.
and i know now exactly what i want.


note to self:
know what you want, hold on to it tight, and don’t settle for 2nd best. :)

full stop.

i hope the rollercoaster ride is over.

whatever happened, i’m done getting hurt over and over again.
but i don’t want to hold the anger anymore. i’m going to let it(anger) go and let it(hurt) stop.
there are so many people around me who suffered looking at me suffer, and these are the people who are well worth my time and my gratitude, and i will not forget these people. i really have lots to thank and remember.

i plan to be happy for a long time. i want to be happy with myself. nobody else is in charge of my happiness but myself.
i want to know it in my bones that i like the person in the mirror.
doesn’t matter if some people don’t give me the respect i deserve, because first of all, it starts with me respecting myself.
i want to be able to respect this person staring back at me.
and it doesn’t matter if i can’t control situations, like right now.
but i will control my emotions and actions.
i will be the sensible one.

this is who i am. what i am proud to be.

those days

still.

i hate that nights like these still haunt me
despite moments of resoluteness

it's not fair.

i’m struggling to find the in between

i’m giving up talking about it
(sometimes i’m ashamed of my thoughts.
i write them somewhere where nobody could read them.
because to be honest, sometimes i think i am really as strong as i wanna be
but sometimes, i act stronger than i really am.)

doesn’t make a difference, does it?

when will this be over?

Better than before

I can’t believe how quick I’m recovering.
And I’m amazed that ‘what goes around comes around’ would apply to us.

love scar

just like any other bruises

it starts with a stinging pain
and gets unbearable on contact
you don’t know whether to bare it all
or to cover it up with a bandage

then as it tries to heal
there are moments you itch and you want to scratch it
but you refrain, because you know it’ll only get worse
especially if you’ve been making progress

but as they say
time heals everything.
pain will disappear.
just be patient and persevere.
you do have natural healing powers.

some email

"When I was a little girl, my mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work. On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage, and extremely burned toast in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was reach for his toast, smile at my mom, and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember watching him smear butter and jelly on that toast and eat every bite!

When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad for burning the toast. And I'll never forget what he said: 'Baby, I love burned toast.'

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his toast burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, 'Debbie, your Momma put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides a little burnt toast never hurt anyone!' You know, life is full of imperfect things.....and imperfect people. I'm not the best housekeeper or cook.

What I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences - is the one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship.

And that's my prayer for you today. That you will learn to take the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life and lay them at the feet of GOD. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be able to give you a relationship where burnt toast isn't a deal-breaker! We could extend this to any relationship in fact - as understanding is the base of any relationship, be it a husband-wife or parent-child or friendship!! "

life goes on

and it gets more exciting.

to do list:

- find out what kinds of jobs are available in NZ and UK, when is a good time to head over
- decide on dates and location for diving in september, plus find khakis!
- find 1 x female khaki for BKK end october
- financial planning! about time…
- plan more holidays. hahahah…

解脱

张惠妹

爱是不夜城
回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾
我越感觉有点冷

变了心的人
越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨
阳光替房间开了灯

想 若结局一样
又何苦再想
想 若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱 是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走 我有自由好好过
解脱 是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我

words that have lost their truths

there are moments
where thoughts of the past creeps up on me
what’s been said before
what’s been done before

then i need to remind myself to STOP
stop right there
stop looking at the past
because it all don’t matter now

how true it had been
stopped being true yesterday.

whatever you hadn’t understand
doesn’t need to be understood.
things don’t need to make sense to you anymore.

because it’s over now. 

believe it.

closure

it came earlier than expected, but just as well.

please understand
if i’m walking too fast for you these days

i think it helps me avoid looking back
keeps me in the mood of looking forward, moving forward
don’t stop me in my tracks

it’s time to build more memories on my own, without him in the picture
to replace the overflowing moments that we had in the past 2.5 years

anyone wants to dive in september? a short and budget one!
need 1 more female khaki for bangkok in october too!

let me know!! :)

31 October 2009

never imagined myself to be counting to this.
but hell yeah…

10 more weeks!!!

隐形人

孙燕姿

无论你肯或不肯
我都选择等
等到你结束好久
探险的旅程
要是没有寂寞陪衬
没有途中的灰尘
你怎会向往家门

你越是想要诚恳
其实越残忍
伪装不了你对我
漠视的眼神
你不许我听信永恒
不许我迷信我们
不许我奋不顾身

多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
给你我的体温
好帮你驱走寒冷
看不见也能感受心疼
多想化成隐形的人
隐藏我的泪在翻滚
我在你凌乱世界
留下的指纹
对你是没心跳的一个吻

朋友都于心不忍
责备我愚蠢
但他们都回避我
执著的眼神
可知我对爱的虔诚
可知我迷信我们
可知我难得放任

多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
给你我的体温
好帮你驱走寒冷
看不见也能感受心疼
多想化成隐形的人
隐藏我的泪在翻滚
我在你凌乱世界
留下的指纹
对你是没心跳的一个吻

random

Teoheng is an awesome place for KTV.

It has most original MTVs, even for the english songs, but they don't have the original MTV for Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie.
So this was what was shown on the screen:


LOL


I cut my hair. Bangs, or not?

Pink

Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

First day.

I need this denial.

Violent tendencies?

Spent the night watching shows about freak accidents, kamakazes, airplane crash investigations, train crash investigations.

I think I've got violent tendencies.

The (notso)-new History channel's really interesting.
I love educational channels!
Got me glued to the tv for 5 hours straight.
The ads for the upcoming shows make me wanna be a fulltime couch potato.

The Vampire Diaries

I'm so watching The Vampire Diaries for Ian Somerhalder!!

Wen wants to

start a regime to keep healthy,
rock climb more regularly,
start learning yoga,
start learning to play the guitar,
enjoy work like she used to,
love you like she used to,
enjoy every single moment she has,
keep her loved ones close as she can,
embrace daily's greatness,
live life to the fullest.

I hate copywriting!

hao bu rong yi write finish an article of 300 words, and I was told that it sounds too much like an advertisement.
So I need to redo the whole thing. Booooo...

Somebody save me....

Trekking is :D

Lazy to blog.
Lazy to type in proper sentences.

I loved the trekking trip.
I love the serenity in the middle of nowhere, far away from civilisation.
Total absence of human, other than the few of us.
Love it.

Only downside to it is having to bathe in not exactly clean and very cold waters- the river, though Tony had a blast doing that.
That crazy fella showered and brushed his teeth 3 times in 2 hours.

Outdoor cooking is funnn!
Chopping down a tree is even better. Haha!
And then there's the campfire, that lasted the night through to morning!

I'm definitely going trekking again :D
Any takers?

-

Genting after trekking.
Proud of my shopping loots!
2 spag tops, 1 tank top, 2 tees, 2 boxer shorts and 1 shorts at only SGD$100!
Hohoh, I love cheap and nice stuff! :)


And I finally got my very belated birthday present (unclaimed yet) from xt.
My perfect-for-driving shoes:

Keds Jetty Mule in Navy

Now I think I need to get socks to match them... :p

Looking for a watch now. Something sporty and slim. Any suggestions?

Cheap goods make me happy

June's randomness

Alone at work today :(
Everyone's out, either on offday, or running events.
Boo. Lunch anybody???

Anyway, I meant to blog several times for the past week but I just didn't get down to it.
Too busy, too tired etc.

Last week's offday was quite awesome;
I went waxing and then I went bra shopping.
Hahaha. I bought 6 bras in a span of less than 2 weeks!
Ok, too much information maybe.
But does anyone wanna reimburse me? As a belated birthday present? Heheheh :D
By the way, I LOVE Cotton On sales.

And then the weekend was so hectic.
Thank goodness June is almost over, and that I'm not the driver for this weekend.
To think about it, it really did zoom past.
Feels like yesterday that we were planning for the Kids Academy, doesn't it?

I'm losing my tan and am almost back to my usual shade of ghostly white.
Was supposed to get a tan yesterday, since it was my offday, but it was drizzling the whole damn day!
Ended up sleeping in, which was much needed.
I actually slept a lot since Tuesday, but I still feel lethargic and tired.

I need a good break.
June has been a marathon.

BRING ON JULY!

aunt bee ean and sydney are back. :)

I showed sydney zovb website
and she's excited about it.

I'm planning to bring her, but to think about it,
I'll probably be working when there's a session where I can bump her in.
but then again,
I don't wanna go to old holland road when I'm on my off day. i

haha.

oh man I seriously am so looking forward to the end of june!

Offday eve

Hmmm... Off day tomorrow.
What shall I do ner?

Sun tan? Don't think so... Quite tanned already after the weekend...

Facial? Just went last week leh.

Wax? Cannot lah, got period.

Watch DVD? Don't really wanna watch alone...

Cut hair. Where should I cut?
Go see laptop cover. Oh yes, who wants to buy me one?
Take a joy ride on the new circle line.
Meet ballers for dinner.

Man, I can't wait for June to be over... Seriously.

And oh gosh I really CAN'T WAIT to watch Harry Potter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=96QRVfto7OM&feature=fvst

The best

Most people I observe,
have the tendency to want to connect to people.

I think I don't. I think I shut new people out a lot.

But when I think about it, I realise that it maybe because I'm satisfied by the ones I already have a connection with, thus not bothering / wanting / needing new additions to my circle of trusted companions.

I would like to think, I already have the best.

Thin line

between stubborn and having a mind of your own
between fickle-minded and open-minded
between stupid and trusting
between stoical and logical
between insensitive and rational
between squandering and enjoying life
between addiction and indulgence
between self-centred and self-protective
between obsession and passion

and many more.

Tired

Realised that I've been extremely short fused lately.
Can't stand it.

Perhaps I need a break.
I need to disappear for a while.

I think I might have developed a love-hate feeling towards this job.
I need to stop this obsession with my work!

Annoyed!

It's so irritating that clients expect you to be checking your emails on a weekend for their event that's happening next weekend, or just tomorrow.

Hello? We can't be at two places at one time. You want us to run the party for you, and you want us to check our emails at the very same time one week before. Can't you just freaking wait till Monday?!

I could really use some considerate and understanding clients.

Harry Potter Mania

Finished reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.
NEED TO READ THE DEATHLY HALLOWS... NOW!
I should pop by the library tomorrow. Yes.

I have a plan.

To leave my current job at the end of the year.
Perhaps I'll bum around, freelance for a couple of months, and head to New Zealand for a couple of weeks in February.
And then I'll head to the States and stay with my aunt for a few months, and try to find a job within the vicinities.
And then in June 2010, I'll head back home on the same flight as my aunt ;)

It's all in my head, and I'll see the turn out of things towards the last quarter of the year.
It's all very exciting!

Crush

The thrill of the uncertainty
The addiction of the tiniest rewards
The excitement in the chase
simply blinds you, confuses you, with what you really want
Flaws ignored and merits magnified
That's how we all fall for the wrong people, isn't it?

I was unbelievably close to getting together with someone whom I used to yearn unbelievably badly, yet at the final moment, I unbelievably pushed away.


Unbelievable, huh?

The Past

Found an old diary of mine
And it's amazing the things I wrote,
The feelings I felt
for people, and for the things that were going on in my life
just 3 years ago.

To say it's 'so far away' is an understatement.

Reading those lines brings back memories, sure they do
But I don't even feel a tinge of it.
I look into my heart and I don't wonder where those feelings have gone...
Instead, I ask what the hell has gotten into me then!?

The grass is so green now.

Anyway, quite surprisingly, I did come up with some musings that made lots of sense.
Somehow they've just been forgotten, or maybe they haven't, just that the exact words haven't surfaced in my mind since then.

Shall be posting them here some time, bit by bit.

(from someone you love, of course!)

because

http://xwenx.livejournal.com/76550.html

 

Sometimes there's so much to rant,
but when the content becomes more than necessary,
stories are distorted and issues are blown out of proportion.

Sometimes escaping seems the best option,
because escaping the situation equals escaping the negative emotions
and there's a sense of zen, a sense of independence, a sense of relief.

Sometimes I just want to stop thinking, stop wondering, stop having to decide.
I want to get on with my life.
Sometimes you take the harder way out,
because you don't want to be taken granted for, you don't want to be a silly girl.

Sorry really does seem to be the hardest word. for you.

I am okay. I'm just feeling emo, so don't ask.

DIY Baked Rice

I just went and try to cook baked rice for myself
and now that it's in the oven, I've decided that I don't want to risk a stomachache before going on holiday.............
So I'm going to dump what I cooked, and eat out.

HAHA

What the Hell...

Highly Incoherent

Let's get random.

Today was a tiring day, and so I'm glad that tomorrow's gonna be a pretty relaxing day for me.

Last night's insomnia was bad, but I'm gonna sleep ever so soundly tonight.

Oh I hope the weekend flies by! Youneedtocomehometomesafeandsound!

Things are getting exciting.
Macau's just a week away.
I'm looking forward to yacht parties & dates! :D

Signs

Going on Cruise!

My 2nd time, and the first was 8 years ago!
This time we're going to Redang... Perhaps I'll get to go for a dive or two :D

-

I've finally started on the collage I've been meaning to do since donkey years ago.

B....

I can hardly believe
how freaking tactless people can be.
Is it the bitch or bimbo in you, I wonder.

bitch –noun
a malicious, unpleasant, selfish person, esp. a woman.

bimbo –noun
a foolish, stupid, or inept person.

I'm nice by not immediately saying "BOTH!"

Completed.

Desperate Housewives Season 3. :D

Here comes a super thick Harry Potter & the Order of the Phoenix.

Did I mention its offday tomorrow? :D

Those days are gone

There will always be times that we miss --
Whether its the days when the passion for your game was burning ever so strong
or the days where the simplest things could send you to cloud nine --
Some of those days are gone,
But some of those,
We have a choice to bring them back.

But then, there are always excuses, some things that stop us ...
And some times, it takes more than you can muster to ask yourself, "What's stopping me?"

I feel trapped.
Trapped in time, in place.
Words are trapped in my throat. Thoughts in my head.
A solo two-way conversation reiterated in the mind again and again.


Can't wait for the month to past. The Macau holiday is the one thing that's keeping me going lately.

The other thing would be bubbletea. Hehe.

HarryPotter!

Whee!!! I'm done with Harry Potter Goblet of Fire! Hahaha. I know it's no big deal lah... For many people. But I hardly ever read! :D Now I feel like watching the movie again... Haha.

Now I'll start watching Desperate Housewives Season 3... And when I'm done, I'll start reading the next Harry Potter book.

Hohoho. Ok I'm quite high. Time for dinner! :)

Just Do It

Officially pulled out from NLP classes. :p
Can't take the 9to6.
It kills me.
Now I'm happy. :D

Now I'm serious about:
Learning guitar
Taking yoga classes
Completing Harry Potter series! (I still owe Ken his books!)

Earth Hour 2009

Do it.

28th March 2009
2030 - 2130 hrs

Macau

Trip booked for 26 - 29 April.

I love this spontaneity.

The girls are now planning for BKK in May. I sure hope I can fork out the time!

Holidays make me happyyyy!

I have perfect eyesight!

It's amazing and impressive how a few shots of laser can cure myopia!
Shall spare you the gruesome procedure.
Now I feel like I'm wearing permanent contact lenses.
It is awesome to wake up with perfect eyesight, go to bed with perfect eyesight without having to worry about contact lenses!
Haha :)

If anyone's interested/curious, I spent about $3000 on both eyes + medication, and each follow up costs $20. First couple of evaluations before the op totalled up to about $300. The place I went to was Clearvision Eye Clinic behind Lucky Plaza.
Getting tired of your lack of sense of remorse.
Hungry and craving for pizza!

Honouring Each Day

by Eugene Loh (taken from Lifewise, Issue 19)

Going by the way some of us live our lives, we don't really think our days are all that important. We rush blindly through them, not savouring the experience, fall into bed exhausted, then wake up the following morning only to repeat the routine. We make mechanical and dutiful contact with our loved ones, saturate our bodies with caffeine, junk food and alcohol, and generally make chains of meaningless moments.

Meaningful moments, when we do try, are few and far between. We blame it on our hectic work schedules, or tenaciously hold on to the notion that there'll always be time for loved ones. Too many people are caught in the trap of "busyness" - that never-ending need to work, to play, to do everything else except the things that truly make life wonderful and meaningful.

When was the last time you truly honoured the day? I mean, really accorded it the respect and significance it deserves? Because the future is an illusion - we all think we have more time, but that isn't true at all. Our lives could end at any time. The only time we really have is the present - it's where we are now. If we can't be happy with who we are, what we have and where we are now, then we're just wasting our time. We might as well be sleepwalking through our days.

Too many of us are waking up in cold sweat thinking,"Where has all the time gone? What have I been doing with my life? Why am I not spending more time showing my wife how much I care about her? Why am I not showing my loved ones more love? How much time do I really have left?"

We're not waking up thinking about jobs, our bosses, getting a fancy haircut, buying a new car, a new bag, and a new anything; these things just don't fulfill our needs!

What we really need is connection. We need to connect more with other human beings; to connect more with nature, to connect more with who we are inside and reflect that on the outside. We need to honour all that the day gives us - the sun, the wind, the hot breakfast, the taxi ride, the smiles, the friendly invitations, our partner's touch, a joke, a laugh, a kiss.

Honouring the day means choosing to make each moment count.

Drunken Stupor

It all came out.
I don't remember the last time I cried so badly.
Lasik scheduled to be next Wednesday.
Pris dearest is the sweetest friend ever. She's accompanying me and escorting me home after that! Gotta love that babe.
I'm getting my pupils cut open, shot by some laser and then I'm gonna kiss goodbye to glasses and contact lenses for a long long time! :D

But I'm so dreading NLP... It better be fun.

Gone are the days

Somehow, it always comes to a point where you no longer have the ability to make your loved one smile.

Something that once seemed to take no effort at all has become an impossible task.

What happened?

Things change.

Thank goodness I went to KTV yesterday instead of today.

I would have emo-ed myself to death.

Nap in the evening, Two cups of tea & the Housewives...

is the reason I'm up at this hour, after 45 minutes of trying to fall asleep. Okay, just ONE episide, I'm telling myself.

Yes, I've recently started watching Desperate Housewives all over again and it truly is addictive.
Eva is gorgeous.

Have you ever been so sucked into a show that you imagine the narrator telling your story with the same kind of humour injected in every line?

-

Oh I think I'm possibly on my way to become a real fat ass!
I've been eating so much lately.

And I think I'm on my way to lasik :D

Once you know how to die, you know how to live.

The heart is heavy.

Life is unpredictable.
Tuesdays with Morrie is doubtlessly inspiring.

But movies are one thing,
Reality is another.

To hear of 2 passings of people I know indirectly within a span of a week is an unpleasant wake up call that anything could happen to anyone I know tomorrow. Anything could happen to ME tomorrow.

What would you do if you had just one week? What would you do, if your beloved had just one week?

What exactly are we chasing?

Happy 2009

Happy New Year everyone!!!

Well, I just wanted to show off that:

1) I've been to Cebu, Philippines and back

2) I've got my HTC Touch 3G for about a month now

3) I've got a projector in my room now - halfway to my room theatre system! Now I'm thinking whether it's even neccessary for a 5 piece sound system at all, or just a handy 2 piece speaker will do...

4) I've been to a wedding that I actually got a personal invite! I think that indirectly reminds me that I'm growing old...

No pictures cause it's my offday and I do what I want = being lazy :)

Cebu was fun. Canyoning was super! I love jumping into water although my ass really hurt from the jumps...
Not too happy coming back to work, but oh well, that's life.
And I don't like being oh-so-busy and oh-so-popular. Phonecalls keep looking for me but it's supposed to be a good thing! But it's hella annoying alright : Especially when it's my offday...

Another couple of new year resolutions:
1) Lasik
2) Get hold of all seasons of Desperate Housewives! So that I can watch them all in my room :D
3) Travel when I can!

Okay, I'm gonna take an AFTERNOON nap! Haha!

New Toys makes me happy :)

Fly N Dive

Philippines tomorrow! Flight in about 20 hours, and I haven't start packing at all. Let's hope I have everything I need at home!

Heh. I can't wait to dive :)

And I just realised that it's quite fun hanging out with my girlfriends and their boyfriends, talking about Lizards and any-riders. Hmmmm.

Wala Wala with the Combat Crew was fun too. Check out facebook for proof.

Oh. Life is great. :)

Play makes me happy!!!