:(

too much drama today.
i am not happy.
he’s not coming back. not tomorrow, not in a few weeks, nor in years.
i’ll never see him in his room again, nor downstairs just whiling time away.
i’ll never hear his voice again.
i’ll never sit in his car with him in the driver’s seat again.
which reminds me, i’ve never driven him around before.
i miss you papa.

it hurts

because he is such a great man, son, father & husband
because he has unfulfilled dreams
because he hasn’t started enjoying the fruits of his labour
because he was healthy and active
because it was from a simple slip and fall, totally unforeseen
because i might never get to see the healthy bubbly him ever again
because he is MY father. my papa.

please get well. please don’t suffer.

sleep sleep sleeeeeep!

guess what?

i went to sleep somemore.
this is why wen doesn’t like staying at home. i feel so useless and unaccomplished.
so my sleeping hours today are as below:

3am to 11am
11.30am to 3.30pm
5.30pm to 7.30

think i’m gonna get insomnia tonight :(

oh yay! i’m getting out of the house!

lethargy

slept so much today that i’ve got a headache and some weird achy feeling in my face.
just feeling lethargic overall
and i simply feel like just lazing in bed
despite having some things on my list to accomplish.

just not a great day, i guess.

cut ties with bloody idiots

i really think i’ve been the nicest i know how to be my entire life.

i’ve never hurt people intentionally
and i really try to give people the benefit of a doubt when their actions are hurtful, even if it’s done to me.
i choose to see things from other people’s shoes so that i understand the reason behind their actions.
i think before i act, to make sure my emotions don’t rule my actions, so that i don’t give people unfair treatment.
and when i realise i’ve done something i shouldn’t, i’m always tormented by my own guilt.
however angry i am at some people, i never give them a piece of my mind no matter how tempted i am.
i try to give them a chance to redeem themselves, with explanations or alternative course of actions.
and at the very end of it, i don’t even hope for karma. i just hope that one day, they realise their mistakes and learn and change for the better.

but why don’t i get even that bit of treatment in return?
it’s utterly frustrating.

and then it’s so easy to give up and give in and say ‘it doesn’t pay to be nice’.
but no, i’m not like that.
i won’t be like that.

i just wish such people would stop entering my life
and that the ones currently in it would vanish from it forever.
i really deserve better.

Things you didn’t know about working in Singapore

I learnt something new today, so should you!

• Clauses on signed contracts can be voided and be overwritten by those on the Employment Act
  
  
• You are eligible for OT pay as long as you are paid under $2500 a month, and/or your job scope is not rendered as an executive or managerial position (even if previously signed and agreed upon on your employment contract)
  
  
• Off days upon requests granted on goodwill from the company cannot equate to offs-in-lieu
  
  
• Employers need to have evidence against employees claims. Employees claims are accepted without the need for proof.
  
  
• Evidences of bad attitude at work does not warrant for an immediate termination under wilful insubordination

Enlightening, huh?

7 years of love, kyuhyun

Although I don’t know korean and I have no idea what he’s singing
this song mesmerises me, somehow.

something about the music, something about his voice.